I can’t believe it’s five years today since my Daddy died. The time seems both too long and too short. I feel like too much time has passed and his presence is fading from this world, which feels horribly unfair.
I also feel it’s too little time and I still feel raw in my loss. It’s all too soon, too recent and I will get over it better and deal with my grief but what do you expect after a couple of months? Five years?
I miss him every day. I think about him every day. I have so much I want to tell him and show him, so many interesting geeky facts and ridiculous gadgets and silly stories and terrible jokes. There’s no-one else in my life I can share all that with, now.
If I could, I’d make a documentary about his extraordinary life. When I think of all he’d done by the time he was forty, it makes me wish I had his drive and ability. I certainly have some of his anger at injustice and I’m very glad of that. His values were deeply, passionately socialist, unlike most of his peers who were your classic Tory doctors. How anyone can work in the NHS and yet also support the party most seeking to destroy it was a puzzle for us both.
I don’t know what to do tonight. I feel unsettled. I used to love watching films with him, whether at home or in the cinema. I remember watching loads of Spaghetti Westerns with him when I was a little kid, he definitely helped foster that lifetime love.
I want to hug him and squeeze him till he grumbles for me to let go. And then not let go.
A study by the Human Rights Watch variously accused 83 governments of having “physically assaulted journalists, bloggers, and protesters… arbitrarily banned or broken up protests… enacted vague laws and measures that criminalize spreading alleged misinformation or other coverage of COVID-19… [and used] counterterrorism and other measures pre-dating the pandemic, to arbitrarily arrest, detain, and prosecute critics.”
In short, the virus provides a convenient excuse to silence, disperse and disempower the masses in struggle.
What irks me about conspiracy theorists is that they’ll invent stuff about vaccinations and Bill Gates blah blah at the same time as our right to protest IS being attacked under the pretext of pandemic safety. It’s not hidden, there’s no secrecy – it’s completely visible.
‘Unlawful assembly’ – a repressive and terrible edict in HK, totally fine here.
So, I did a list for a mate of SF authors I think everyone should read. I tried to stay away from the obvious greats (like Iain M. Banks) and very huge names but a few slipped through, of course. Please take the time to check out these authors if you love science fiction:
doing leftism exclusively on the internet gives you brainworms. like yeah read theory, talk to people on social media, but at some point you have to go outside. please. the things you say and believe about politics have repercussions in the real world and you have to live in that world to understand what those repercussions could be. find out who’s doing mutual aid in your community. join the iww or food not bombs or a community garden or a street medic collective or a prison letter writing campaign or something helpful that forces you to talk with real human beings directly about and in the context of their actual lives – source: crowleyraejepsen
A million, billion times THIS.
I’ve been actively involved in politics, in demonstrating and protesting for the last 30+ years. Yes, reading is important, theory is important. But don’t get lost in the petty internecine feuding of armchair socialists.
Get out there! Meet people, organise buses to demos, support local BLM groups.
And if you can’t do that because of social anxiety issues, do online stuff that you feel comfortable with, organise that way.
But arguing on the internet… it’s just pissing in the wind.