Four Years Ago Today

Four years ago today
My life ended
And this one began

Soon, I won’t remember that life
Because I can’t
It’s too beautiful

You’re too beautiful

Tonight, I’ll be wearing a mask
Over my mask
So people won’t ask me if I’m okay

If I look sideways
I don’t see it
I can pretend it’s not there

But I know it’s waiting

These last four years,
Trapped in the Wrong Universe
I’ve been running, hiding

Yet the memories hunt me down
In dreams, in moments
I see you, I love you

You love me

Unplugged from smiling
Released from laughing
Expelled, screaming

I wait,
For nothing, for nobody,
Blank.