Four years ago today
My life ended
And this one began
Soon, I won’t remember that life
Because I can’t
It’s too beautiful
You’re too beautiful
Tonight, I’ll be wearing a mask
Over my mask
So people won’t ask me if I’m okay
If I look sideways
I don’t see it
I can pretend it’s not there
But I know it’s waiting
These last four years,
Trapped in the Wrong Universe
I’ve been running, hiding
Yet the memories hunt me down
In dreams, in moments
I see you, I love you
You love me
Unplugged from smiling
Released from laughing
Expelled, screaming
I wait,
For nothing, for nobody,
Blank.